It's funny how sometimes you don't realize your desired destination until you've been on the road for awhile. These 2 wonderful balls of joy and energy have led me to my life path. Until then, the rest seems kind of unimportant. I've done a lot of things in my life. Some that most would consider crazy. But funny enough, memories are only stories. I know they happened but over time they become eschewed and dreamlike. That's not the person I am anymore. I've shed that skin many times over since. I will continue to do so until the day I leave this existence.
It's easy to ask what it all means. What is the point of all of this? More and more I realize that the point is now. The small joys and victories in the present moment. Nothing else makes any difference. All that has happened not only can't be changed, but no longer exists. Again, only stories distorted over time. Tomorrow? Also doesn't exist. It is only a dream of desires and anxieties.
None of these points are new concepts. The challenge is living these concepts. It's so easy to get caught up in all of the little things that don't matter. To dwell on things that no longer serve any purpose. But I'm learning. Learning to let go of all the baggage. All of the things that no longer exist or serve purpose in my life.
I do this for myself, but more importantly for my children. They deserve to watch the world spin in the palm of their hands. To pluck each thought of wonderment from the surface and see it for what it is, then set it free like a butterfly. They deserve all of this, just for being born. For being who they are. For growing in to the women they will become. It's imperative that I don't get in their way. That I hold their hands and follow them.
This is our journey. The smooth trails, the rocky cliffs. All of it beautiful and wonderful. I'm so lucky I get to travel with them, and see the world through youthful eyes once again.
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